Have you ever felt so much for someone, and even if your with your other friends, you constantly remember certain things about some place that reminds them of you.
Well that place for me is music.
And that someone is Nic.
My love.
But you guys already knew that.
Sometimes I just want to sing to him, make up a song about how much I love him, but I try and I can never find the Perfect not even normal words that could tell him that.
I can tell you guys he has been in my dreams ever since I met him.
So I can truly say I love him conscious or in my subconscious.
LOL.
Even if he wasn't the main character in my dream.
He was there being himself.
It's so funny I always am worried that he would cheat on me and I can't understand why.
I mean he hasn't and I know he won't
maybe it's just a female thing XD.
I can't think of being without him. Which is probably selfish, because I don't want him to feel obligated to stay with me if he doesn't feel it anymore. But I find myself almost trying to find other guy's attractive, and it never happens.
Because he has altered my thinking, the way I live to a point where I don't even desire to like any other guy or to find them attractive in a sexual way.
I may not even have lived long enough to KNOW or EXPIERIENCE true love that last's forever.
But how many people have said they were truly in "love" and been divorced or end up hating each other's guts?
I think when you truly loves someone you can't put words to it, you can't exactly say why you love them but you remember stuff they have done with them, or you remember characteristics about them EXAMPLE:he's so nice, he always opens doors for me
Whatever, but it's not just :money: or :nice personality:
The list goes on and on and on and on.
And i'm not saying that's the case with everyone.
I just feel so in love with him.
i'm absolutely intoxicated with his warm hugs and kisses.
There trance-starting and wonderful and special.
Each one.
Different.
But meaningful!
He's so different from me and yet I find myself always smiling and laughing and absolutely in a trance/spaced-off/love spell
that's amazing
:]
I wish everyone could feel this way.
It's like ecstasy.
I always want to be surrounded by him.
I sadly cannot even sleep when I don't call him and say goodnight, or hear him before I go to sleep.
Which I think is just a bit selfish because he can't always do that.
But it's me.


Maybe people will understand this ,
maybe they will think
it won't last.
But whatever the case,
Whatever you opinion is
I'm right and you can't influence me to believe you because your not the one expieriencing it.
Your not the one who slept on a roof with him while it was raining
and had sex with him that same night and then fell asleep in his arms.
Whispering I love you, and having the greateset sleep ever.
And then he walks you all the way home because he loves you.
at 7:00 am
And your not the one who made him a wooden heart with your name in it for his b-day.
And he loved it, he said it was the best present ever
:] which in turn makes me happy.
And your not the one who was nuzzled up with him under the stars watching them and talking. And then a shooting star passes. My 1st shooting star
:]
Your not the one who walked with him on the beach at night and raced along the shore line and played tag and almost got thrown in the freezing water but instead I was gently placed on the sand and kissed passionatly. <3
But i can honestly say I want to spend the rest of my life with him.
But if you care to "prove" me wrong.
try me.
I'll be waiting
xoxox
[ Kat ]

that's my online name
because perverts are scary
:]
meow